Oct 17

Thursday, Oct 17.

Ok, well day 3 of nausea. Lasted until I got to work at least this time, then it hit with a vengeance. I talked with someone who had had severe MS during her pregnancy (gave birth in June) and she said she just ate what she felt like eating, like something that didn't make her gag. Not sure what that will be for me, as of right now, the only thing I've discovered that doesn't give me that feeling is bread and butter and pretzels. not the best for nutrition.

Forced myself to eat an omelette and fruit this morning, get the calories and what not in me. slight nausea, nothing too bad. Tried to eat chocolate covered pretzels last night, that did NOT go well. Taste was good, but felt like puking as soon as i got the taste. So, chocolate in general seems to be a no-go. Tea is ok, drinking diet mt dew right now, and going to get some water later. Headache is gone after I took the acetaminophen, so yay! Ugh this is all so WEIRD! especially since I can't know one way or the other until AT LEAST this weekend, probably not until next weekend. All signs are pointing to "yes" tho, especially after talking to my mom. She said she had morning sickness from the get go on all 3 of her pregnancies.

LOL andy called me "baby crazy" the other day, when I started feeling really sick and having really strong food aversions. He offered me beer, and the smell made me gag. I told him i thought I might be pregnant, and that's when he told me I'm "baby crazy." *laughs* I know its too soon to know, but he said my body couldn't even know yet, and that's when I told him, well actually it can at this point. MS can start as early as 3 weeks (after the first day of your last period, since that's when they count the start of your pregnancy). And guess what? That's exactly where I am. ugh. REALLY not sure how I feel about all of this. I want a child, yes, but I'm also scared to death. I already have HBP, and I wanted to loose another 30lbs and get OFF the meds before I got pregnant. I'm at heightened risk for pre-eclampsia, and I'm going to have to be SUPER careful about my weight and whatnot. I almost wish I could diet during pregnancy, maybe I can keep my weight the same or loose some while keeping nutrition up. IF I am, I'll have to ask at my first appointment. I'm wondering if they'll send me to a perinatologist? I know I'm worrying, but frankly, I'm not sure about all of this, and I'm concerned. What if I have to go on bed rest? How will that affect my career? Will I need to work from home? Can I work from home? What about the house? Can we get it done in time? 

Ugh so many questions, and I can't talk to Andy about any of this, since he's convinced that I'm just "baby crazy"